I strive to be present, the only thing that keeps my mind in the moment lately is painting and photography. I suppose I am lucky to know this as, it’s a healthy way to practice staying present. I swing from the present to middle of a memory, in the middle of the night, to a time I felt happy, then I swing into the present when I feel lonely and begin to project assumptions about myself. This pattern has brought an abundance of self inflicted pain lately. Thus, I have been hunkering down and creating. Mostly after I work out, since that is also when I feel I can be present. I read a quote the other day that is so true, “The cure for anything is saltwater: sweat, tears or the sea.” Isak Dinesen. Now if I can get to the ocean on a regular basis I am all set! But in all seriousness, I have been through a lot and the past couple months have been oneof the most challenging for me. Goodbyes are the hardest for me and I am learning to say it with a “for now” at the end. Now, where did I put my brush??
When you need reminding. Be kind to yourself. Be seen. Be vulnerable and feel it through.